Time flies and I'm done with my 2nd year of law exams.How did it go? Not so well for me.I can only blame myself.So,there's nothing much to talk about it really cause deep down in me I know what I should have done,could have done.There's no turning back and I am going to just prepare myself for the worst that may come.I think no one can have a more higher expectation of me than myself.The others around me plays a factor to.But at the end of the other,it all comes to yourself.
That aside,the long awaited holidays are finally here! It's like a new found freedom for the past month before exam,I routine was attend class,go back home,study and stone,eat,sleep.That's all.I have been getting very minimal sleep for myself.Face is a disaster,body fat has increased.Time to change that during these coming months.I have been dying to go shopping,but realised that the sale season is not really on yet.Feel like going on a trip,just going somewhere.But then realised that i first need to figure out who to go with,where to go,and most importantly how to get there and go about.I shall for now,rot myself at home by doing housework,finally read the story books that I bought months ago and watch dramas! tons of them.
Am currently loving florence + the machine.Shake it out (her performance in british x-factor is just so amazing).Ahhhh.the voice.is just love.Anticipating big bang's new songs! Cant wait for 2ne1 also!!! I hope I can make it to BB's concert in Malaysia.I think everyone around me knows how much I have been saying that it will be a dream come true to see all 5 of them live and I can die a truly happy person after that.I am praying that there's no obstacle of clash of events that prevent me from seeing them.(shall not say them here specifically for I dont want to jinx it.)
I have some projects up in my mind but I shall not list them down here too cause I dont know if I can finish them or carry it out.Shall post pics of it or something if I manage to finish them ! :D
I miss my friends a LOT.Especially those dekat luar Malaysia tu.Since they are not coming back this year/have yet to come back.*cries* Ooh and also,more of my friends are leaving to UK this year.Booooo.It feels that everyone is leaving already.Time to find myself a bf.muhaahahahahahahaaha.I'm just kidding.
I weirdly like being alone at times.Doing my own things.Having the time and space to think things out.etc.etc.
ok.I'm rambling too much here.Happy holidays people.Decided I shall not think anything more about exams until the night before my results are out.
-with lots of love,peace out-
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Sunday, May 6, 2012
announcement----
*sweeps cobwebs* This blog shall resume actively again most probably after the 29th of May.Exams.I'm stressed.The feeling of you think you're prepared? but you don't know what's going to happen? and this year counts towards my honors with all killer subjects.just great.grrrrr. To look at it another way,I can't wait for it to finish for the holidays lying ahead of me.And I am dying to go shopping.I have yet to get myself my birthday present.boooo.
All the best to all my friends who will be/having their exams now!! For those in 2nd year,we are half way to finishing this degree! I did not know what I had for me when I signed up for this *cries* To my friends in their final year !!! You're gonna get out of this for a more harder exam ahead of you.Either doing the Bar or CLP.=P That is an envitable fact,but for now,you're finally gonna graduate!!! Time certainly flies at the speed of light I tell you.It's both good and bad in my personal opinion.
ok.au revoir .i'm off for now.
-with lots of love,peace out-
All the best to all my friends who will be/having their exams now!! For those in 2nd year,we are half way to finishing this degree! I did not know what I had for me when I signed up for this *cries* To my friends in their final year !!! You're gonna get out of this for a more harder exam ahead of you.Either doing the Bar or CLP.=P That is an envitable fact,but for now,you're finally gonna graduate!!! Time certainly flies at the speed of light I tell you.It's both good and bad in my personal opinion.
ok.au revoir .i'm off for now.
-with lots of love,peace out-
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
21
p/s: thank you also to Mr.Chan and Ms.Lee for the awesome meals =)
-with lots of love,peace out-
Monday, April 2, 2012
I'll always remember.thank you
I'm finally 21.it's so surreal.How does it feel? It's pretty much the same other than the fact now that I am an adult.Like I could do all things that were not really legal to me last time,like clubbing and stuff.Hehhehehe.
Rather than describing it as being the happiest in the world today,I think I'm the luckiest in the world to have meet such awesome friends and such loving and comical family members.Some friends whom I thought may not remember my birthday,took the effort to text me! I really appreciate it.And those who took time off from their busy schedule or some even when feeling tired and all,to celebrate with me.I really appreciate it.
Pre-celebration started with eating korean food dinner on the 1st of April.After that,I thought my parents slept already,but at 12 midnight,they came into my room with a cake and present for me.I was super shocked and prevented myself from bursting into tears.At 12 sharp also,my bro called me and sang to me the birthday song.I thought he had forgotten too! My sis was comical.I am currently using her old phone.The calender in the phone still has those important dates that she set reminder off,and at 12.00 am sharp too,it rang stating ''Sis' birthday''.I was holding on to the phone and got a shock.I was blur for a moment.Taking some time to process that it was me. >.< And then i went ''oh'' and my sis and I looked at each other and laugh and she said'' See,my phone so good.Even reminded you of your own birthday.So accurate somemore.Happy Birthdaylah then.'' Hahahahaha.
And I can't believe that I got pranked by Ms.Phui Gi.telling me she was aka T.O.P (Tan Ong Piak) dying his hair blue for me birthday and will be in brickfields.hahhaahaha.I laughed my ass off.awesomeness.hahahahahahaha.
Attended class in the morning and I seriously respect my lecturer/principal.He was not feeling well (was vomitting0he had a stomach flu i think) and still insist on carrying on the class.So dedicated.Respect.respect.Then after that,went to watch movie-Mirror Mirror which was sooo funny and ate japanese food =DDD Had a great time.Would like to again thank See Wei,for taking the effort to call everyone,Yik Yee who's always there for me and is my tour guide in times square and all (hehehe),Mich,Lee Tat,Eric,Ah J and Su Ning .
Ooh oh.Also,I have 3 other high school classmates who shares the same birthday with me! How cool is that right? I remember some friends saying that whenever its 2nd of april they'll always go broke cause they have to buy gifts for 4 people! hahahahaa.This year,being 21,all 4 of us decided to get together around next week to celebrate being alive for 21 years at the same day,month and year =DDDDD It's been a long time since I meet them too.Looking forward to it.
Am also looking forward to meet up with Ms.Lee.Ughhh.everyone's so busy at this time of the month,having exams and whatnot.Sad.Sad.
Last surprise was today when I got home,dad told me that I got a card.When I saw it,I was so shocked.It was from Ms.Sweet.She wrote a letter for me! and also created a checklist on what to do for my brithday (which some was funny and some impossible/hard to achieve).Ok.dress nicely/cutely is doable,but approach a guy whom i think is cute? come on... =(( oklah..calling someone -him/her telling him i love him/her is doable alsolah i guess.hahahaha. I was so amused and touched and overwhelmed that I cant believe I'm saying this,that i cry.Not like until very sad lah.But really cos i appreciate it.Like the effort and thought that went to write all this stuff..haihh.brings me to tears people.
I am really thankful and happy today.Thank you so much.Words can't really describe my exact feeling really.It's a memory that have been stored safely in my brain for the rest of my life.
shall post some pics updates later as i wanna compile them all together.
-with lots of love,and really,thank you everyone,you know who you guys are,peace out-
Rather than describing it as being the happiest in the world today,I think I'm the luckiest in the world to have meet such awesome friends and such loving and comical family members.Some friends whom I thought may not remember my birthday,took the effort to text me! I really appreciate it.And those who took time off from their busy schedule or some even when feeling tired and all,to celebrate with me.I really appreciate it.
Pre-celebration started with eating korean food dinner on the 1st of April.After that,I thought my parents slept already,but at 12 midnight,they came into my room with a cake and present for me.I was super shocked and prevented myself from bursting into tears.At 12 sharp also,my bro called me and sang to me the birthday song.I thought he had forgotten too! My sis was comical.I am currently using her old phone.The calender in the phone still has those important dates that she set reminder off,and at 12.00 am sharp too,it rang stating ''Sis' birthday''.I was holding on to the phone and got a shock.I was blur for a moment.Taking some time to process that it was me. >.< And then i went ''oh'' and my sis and I looked at each other and laugh and she said'' See,my phone so good.Even reminded you of your own birthday.So accurate somemore.Happy Birthdaylah then.'' Hahahahaha.
And I can't believe that I got pranked by Ms.Phui Gi.telling me she was aka T.O.P (Tan Ong Piak) dying his hair blue for me birthday and will be in brickfields.hahhaahaha.I laughed my ass off.awesomeness.hahahahahahaha.
Attended class in the morning and I seriously respect my lecturer/principal.He was not feeling well (was vomitting0he had a stomach flu i think) and still insist on carrying on the class.So dedicated.Respect.respect.Then after that,went to watch movie-Mirror Mirror which was sooo funny and ate japanese food =DDD Had a great time.Would like to again thank See Wei,for taking the effort to call everyone,Yik Yee who's always there for me and is my tour guide in times square and all (hehehe),Mich,Lee Tat,Eric,Ah J and Su Ning .
Ooh oh.Also,I have 3 other high school classmates who shares the same birthday with me! How cool is that right? I remember some friends saying that whenever its 2nd of april they'll always go broke cause they have to buy gifts for 4 people! hahahahaa.This year,being 21,all 4 of us decided to get together around next week to celebrate being alive for 21 years at the same day,month and year =DDDDD It's been a long time since I meet them too.Looking forward to it.
Am also looking forward to meet up with Ms.Lee.Ughhh.everyone's so busy at this time of the month,having exams and whatnot.Sad.Sad.
Last surprise was today when I got home,dad told me that I got a card.When I saw it,I was so shocked.It was from Ms.Sweet.She wrote a letter for me! and also created a checklist on what to do for my brithday (which some was funny and some impossible/hard to achieve).Ok.dress nicely/cutely is doable,but approach a guy whom i think is cute? come on... =(( oklah..calling someone -him/her telling him i love him/her is doable alsolah i guess.hahahaha. I was so amused and touched and overwhelmed that I cant believe I'm saying this,that i cry.Not like until very sad lah.But really cos i appreciate it.Like the effort and thought that went to write all this stuff..haihh.brings me to tears people.
I am really thankful and happy today.Thank you so much.Words can't really describe my exact feeling really.It's a memory that have been stored safely in my brain for the rest of my life.
shall post some pics updates later as i wanna compile them all together.
-with lots of love,and really,thank you everyone,you know who you guys are,peace out-
Monday, March 26, 2012
Want!!
-with lots of love,peace out-
Monday, March 19, 2012
Intention: Just merely to acknowledge. full stop.
Ahh,after hoping for this moment to happen for like 3 years,it did so today unexpectedly.I did not notice him at first,then I thought I saw him,but kind of dismiss the thought.And then I realized it's really him.Somehow though I got the feeling that he may have recognized my earlier but did not like say hi or call out my name or so.
At Seremban where majority of the people got down,there was like less than 10 people in the train and you were sitting in the opposite front side of me.For one second,we look at each other,but you look so cold/irritated that I did not dare to smile or show any recognition that I know you.
The awkward moment where we both got down at the same station where I actually attempted to ask if you're really you,but you got off quickly and was walking hurriedly trying not to make eye contact that I say to myself, ''ok.let's not say hi to each other than''.
Is it just me who have grown or is it just that I just realised that I am actually taller than you.To put it in a blunt way,you're short. Words from a friend who told me this during camp fire last time came to my mind : '' With his attitude like that,you deserve so much better'.He's not suitable for you.'' Hahahahaha.And I secretly agree with him again at that moment.
Dad came and I got into the car,ignoring the fact that you were in fact you.Are you afraid that I still hold a torch for you ? or are you just shy or freaked out to have met me ? Either way, I just feel it's sad that we can't even say hi to each other.Yes,we were never really close as friends in the first place,but it wouldn't kill just to say a simple 'hi' right? I mean,I'm a nice person in general really.
Rather than emo and being hurt,I just feel it's such a waste.What's wrong with just a simple hi? Well,I guess not everyone look at things the same way as I do.
Did my revision in a hospital today.Accompanied sis to do a check up.It took so long that I actually fell asleep for like 30 minutes and then woke up and resume studying.I think I must have got a lot of weird glances,but I don't care.I slept for a while in sentral (nearby star bucks there) last fri while waiting for sis.Too tired.hahahahaha. Went to collect my bag that I won.I thought the bag was big,but it was a bit smaller in size.But I'm very thankful to have won it.It's so mahal that I wouldn't buy it for myself.
I take this as a pre-birthday present for myself which I got with RM 0.Which means,I intend to get myself something for my birthday.Don't know what should I get myself.Still contemplating =D
-with lots of love,peace out-
At Seremban where majority of the people got down,there was like less than 10 people in the train and you were sitting in the opposite front side of me.For one second,we look at each other,but you look so cold/irritated that I did not dare to smile or show any recognition that I know you.
The awkward moment where we both got down at the same station where I actually attempted to ask if you're really you,but you got off quickly and was walking hurriedly trying not to make eye contact that I say to myself, ''ok.let's not say hi to each other than''.
Is it just me who have grown or is it just that I just realised that I am actually taller than you.To put it in a blunt way,you're short. Words from a friend who told me this during camp fire last time came to my mind : '' With his attitude like that,you deserve so much better'.He's not suitable for you.'' Hahahahaha.And I secretly agree with him again at that moment.
Dad came and I got into the car,ignoring the fact that you were in fact you.Are you afraid that I still hold a torch for you ? or are you just shy or freaked out to have met me ? Either way, I just feel it's sad that we can't even say hi to each other.Yes,we were never really close as friends in the first place,but it wouldn't kill just to say a simple 'hi' right? I mean,I'm a nice person in general really.
Rather than emo and being hurt,I just feel it's such a waste.What's wrong with just a simple hi? Well,I guess not everyone look at things the same way as I do.
Did my revision in a hospital today.Accompanied sis to do a check up.It took so long that I actually fell asleep for like 30 minutes and then woke up and resume studying.I think I must have got a lot of weird glances,but I don't care.I slept for a while in sentral (nearby star bucks there) last fri while waiting for sis.Too tired.hahahahaha. Went to collect my bag that I won.I thought the bag was big,but it was a bit smaller in size.But I'm very thankful to have won it.It's so mahal that I wouldn't buy it for myself.
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| It's a 3-in -1 bag =) |
-with lots of love,peace out-
Sunday, March 18, 2012
It's been a long time again.Summary of the current life (there's really not much,but here it goes) Went to Lee Hom's concert.It rained,an interesting experience with water,highness and mud.Did not took a pic of me rocking the raincoat =(( LOVING BIG BANG'S NEW ALBUM.I need not scream any louder I think.hahahaha.Discovered and loving some new/old songs: John Dahlback-Life,Avril Lavigne's songs, Taylor Swift ft.The Civil Wars-Safe and Sound, 2ne1-Scream, Lyn-Back In Time,Mad Soul Child- Breathe and also Dear..Am about to check out Shinee's new album and also BoA's new single.=D
Watched This Means Wars after what seems like decades since I've been to the cinema.The previous movie before that was New Year's Eve.(yes.I lead a kinda sad life at times). Addicted to Running Man.Finishing the Moon Embracing the Sun.Waiting patiently for The Vow movie to be out and hence another chance to stuff myself with popcorns!! *evil laughs* Got a postcard from Ms.Sweet <3 Won myself a bag which I totally forgot I entered the contest.Obsession with blogs,daydreaming about shoes,bags and what not also continues where I have the time.
The stress and fear for exams takes up my daily thoughts/energy and what not.As a result-I tend to crave for all fat,junk not the healthiest food out there.Face/skin complexion is a horror story.Short term memory loss from time to time occurs.And also moments being moody/impatient/heartless/emo occurs.
That's more or less it.How's your life doing people? Good I hope.=)
p/s: The weather is killing me these days.not to mention also the ktm.
-with lots of love,peace out-
Saturday, February 25, 2012
If it's meant to be,
Gahhh,it's like 2 and a half months more to exam.Status: Freaking out and the non-stop feeling of stress.Therapy of it:Putting on nail polishes,craving and eating fat foods,lots and lots of music and a little dose of english and korean drama during the weekends.
At times,just to take my mind from thinking about my daily stress and stuff,I find myself thinking/forming some thoughts on some other things in life.I was watching Grey's Anatomy (an avid fan !) and on one of its episode in Season 8,the theme of the episode was a take on What Ifs.What if I choose this route,what would the outcome be like,what if that something didn't happen,what would happen? and watching that episode,some of the outcome was unexpected and funny.But,as I was watching some of it just didn't feel right you know.Maybe it's because for 8 seasons,I was happy with how some things were and like thought that it was just right for it to be like that.
Thoughts of what ifs..Of course I thought about it.What if I decided to study something else? what if I decided to join college at a later intake? What if I decided to like change and become a total opposite of myself just maybe fit in or join people I think was cool in college or like to just follow the trend of smoking,going clubbing ever so frequently and getting drunk and whatnot?
The ending of that episode of Grey's is that,if the route that you have chosen back in time was different from it was now,one way or another,if what is meant to be will be.If you are destined to get to know a person,be firm friends with them or whatsoever,even if you have taken a different path at times,if you're destined in your lifetime to get to know them,one way or another,you'll get to that point in your life.It may take a different path/time to reach there,but at the end of the day,the final the outcome will still be somewhat the same.
I am a believer of that too.And I just love that episode.I find myself thinking a few years back too,like what would my life be if i had not met my college friends?what if zi stop trying to maintain my friendship with my high school close friends? I'm very thankful to have come to know an awesome bunch of friends.Being in college,in a new environment and all is like starting school all over again..Leaning new stuff,meeting new people,etc.Only thing is,it's a much more scary and I may say a bit cruel..Like if you don't meet the right friends,you're life would be different.Yes.you may find at times that hey,trying this and that is something new and it's actually fun.Why have I not do something like this before.But,I feel it;s important to stay grounded to a certain extent at times.Change and adapt is all good but to go to the extent to become someone where at the end of the day,you find yourself being in actual fact all alone.Is it the real meaning of happiness or something that you want?
I feel that everyone has many different layers of personality and you display them differently depending on the group that you're in,hence resulting you getting to mix a wide variety group of friends,if you're usually of the neutral type of person.It depends really. Hmm,one would think,does that makes you fake since you're acting differently with different people? I'm of the personal opinion,that it's not really fake.It depends on how you look at things lah.This is merely my outlook lah.
I'm pretty much a quiet person at times.(gasp.! shocked??!! ) hahahaha.in the sense that it takes me time to warm up to someonelah.I don't really talk much if I don't really know you.This is for real.BUT,when I discover that you and I share something which I love,for example,korean stuff.Hahahaha.You'll see my eyes shining suddenly and there goes my mouth.Not only thatlah,I mean if I get to know you further and we can like get along,then you'll slowly realise that umm,I love gossips (muahahaha.who doesn't?) am very blurrr at times,impulsive,am a cool nerd.=p not what I am of your first impression when you meet me perhaps? unless like you meet me at times when I tengah ber 38-ing with my friends.(habis ruin my image) hahahahaha.
So yea,I'm really thankful to be able to meet many awesome people in my life.Forgive me if I have ever pissed you off in any way intentionally or unintentionally.Everyone is not perfect nor a saint.Nor can one ever please everyone in the world.
-with lots of love,peace out-
At times,just to take my mind from thinking about my daily stress and stuff,I find myself thinking/forming some thoughts on some other things in life.I was watching Grey's Anatomy (an avid fan !) and on one of its episode in Season 8,the theme of the episode was a take on What Ifs.What if I choose this route,what would the outcome be like,what if that something didn't happen,what would happen? and watching that episode,some of the outcome was unexpected and funny.But,as I was watching some of it just didn't feel right you know.Maybe it's because for 8 seasons,I was happy with how some things were and like thought that it was just right for it to be like that.
Thoughts of what ifs..Of course I thought about it.What if I decided to study something else? what if I decided to join college at a later intake? What if I decided to like change and become a total opposite of myself just maybe fit in or join people I think was cool in college or like to just follow the trend of smoking,going clubbing ever so frequently and getting drunk and whatnot?
The ending of that episode of Grey's is that,if the route that you have chosen back in time was different from it was now,one way or another,if what is meant to be will be.If you are destined to get to know a person,be firm friends with them or whatsoever,even if you have taken a different path at times,if you're destined in your lifetime to get to know them,one way or another,you'll get to that point in your life.It may take a different path/time to reach there,but at the end of the day,the final the outcome will still be somewhat the same.
I am a believer of that too.And I just love that episode.I find myself thinking a few years back too,like what would my life be if i had not met my college friends?what if zi stop trying to maintain my friendship with my high school close friends? I'm very thankful to have come to know an awesome bunch of friends.Being in college,in a new environment and all is like starting school all over again..Leaning new stuff,meeting new people,etc.Only thing is,it's a much more scary and I may say a bit cruel..Like if you don't meet the right friends,you're life would be different.Yes.you may find at times that hey,trying this and that is something new and it's actually fun.Why have I not do something like this before.But,I feel it;s important to stay grounded to a certain extent at times.Change and adapt is all good but to go to the extent to become someone where at the end of the day,you find yourself being in actual fact all alone.Is it the real meaning of happiness or something that you want?
I feel that everyone has many different layers of personality and you display them differently depending on the group that you're in,hence resulting you getting to mix a wide variety group of friends,if you're usually of the neutral type of person.It depends really. Hmm,one would think,does that makes you fake since you're acting differently with different people? I'm of the personal opinion,that it's not really fake.It depends on how you look at things lah.This is merely my outlook lah.
I'm pretty much a quiet person at times.(gasp.! shocked??!! ) hahahaha.in the sense that it takes me time to warm up to someonelah.I don't really talk much if I don't really know you.This is for real.BUT,when I discover that you and I share something which I love,for example,korean stuff.Hahahaha.You'll see my eyes shining suddenly and there goes my mouth.Not only thatlah,I mean if I get to know you further and we can like get along,then you'll slowly realise that umm,I love gossips (muahahaha.who doesn't?) am very blurrr at times,impulsive,am a cool nerd.=p not what I am of your first impression when you meet me perhaps? unless like you meet me at times when I tengah ber 38-ing with my friends.(habis ruin my image) hahahahaha.
So yea,I'm really thankful to be able to meet many awesome people in my life.Forgive me if I have ever pissed you off in any way intentionally or unintentionally.Everyone is not perfect nor a saint.Nor can one ever please everyone in the world.
-with lots of love,peace out-
Thursday, February 23, 2012
How's everyone's life lately? Mine's pretty much the same other than the fact of some stuff cropping up here and there(out of the unusual/unexpected) and of course,my ever growing discovery of new songs.current addiction are : Cassie-King Of Hearts,Chris Brown-Turn up the music,snow patrol-called out in the dark and Big Bang..Am patiently waiting for their new album.Feb 29th baby.hahaahahhaa
Sometimes when I have nothing to do,or like am inspired by the movies/stuffs that I read.I tend to think about stuffs concerning/affecting my daily life...For one,I sometimes feel like single is the way to go.Not that I don't want a bf,just that,sometimes it's just better to not have one.There are of course pros and cons to it lah.But I can't help feeling scared hearing my friend's relationship problems at times.I tend to prefer a less dramatic life lately,and hence the coming to these kind of thoughts.hahahaha...
Also,I have come to realise lately that I dont know what is the exact reason for people behaving like this,but I am of the view that self-pity is a very bad thing.Don't take me wrongly,I do have moments of self pity also,it's just that,I sometimes feel that you go around feeling sad and sorry for yourself,it doesn't actually make things better.Why not choose to be happy instead,or improve on the stuff that makes you feel down,like find a solution or something.I don't mean that you can't totally be sad and emo when you are,( look at the emo posts that I have here..booo) just that,dont do it for too long? Maybe it's due to my impatient personality or something,or that I hate seeing myself being like that and so, I dont really get the idea of self-pity.
I think I realised that self-pity is if I may put it bluntly,a stupid thing sometimes,when I realised a few years back that '' Honey,the world does not revolve around you,so whatever you do,have the strength to look and move forward''.Everyone's selfish to a certain extent,and so,at times,some just couldn't care less about you.
Maybe cause of this some people do it just to seek attention,some just can't help themselves,some just do it without realising it.I think there was one day where I was thinking to myself,urghh,it's just so hard and tiring travelling like that,etc,etc,etc..And then another voice or it's just my logic/rational side talking to me saying why am I pitying myself,instead of just moping around,why not look at things at the brighter side,when the going gets tough,you should at least try to be tougher..take it as a challenge,a way to arrange your time and all.And so,hence,I try to not self-pity myself too much..and maybe a lack of sympathy for those who do so.( I know I'm mean)..I also feel it takes my energy.mood away..And I dont feel it's worth of my energy to make myself feel like this.Better channel the energy to become a nerd or something more beneficial.hahahaha
Oh course,doing it once in a while is ok,but doing it for a long period of time or all the time,it annoys me lah.I would think,come on,you're not that weak of a person,why make yourself so right? Oh well,these are only my personal thoughts and it's understandable that not everyone agree on all things.so,feel free to disagree.criticize,etc. Just a current random thought that got me thinking lately=.
-with lots of love,peace out-
Sometimes when I have nothing to do,or like am inspired by the movies/stuffs that I read.I tend to think about stuffs concerning/affecting my daily life...For one,I sometimes feel like single is the way to go.Not that I don't want a bf,just that,sometimes it's just better to not have one.There are of course pros and cons to it lah.But I can't help feeling scared hearing my friend's relationship problems at times.I tend to prefer a less dramatic life lately,and hence the coming to these kind of thoughts.hahahaha...
Also,I have come to realise lately that I dont know what is the exact reason for people behaving like this,but I am of the view that self-pity is a very bad thing.Don't take me wrongly,I do have moments of self pity also,it's just that,I sometimes feel that you go around feeling sad and sorry for yourself,it doesn't actually make things better.Why not choose to be happy instead,or improve on the stuff that makes you feel down,like find a solution or something.I don't mean that you can't totally be sad and emo when you are,( look at the emo posts that I have here..booo) just that,dont do it for too long? Maybe it's due to my impatient personality or something,or that I hate seeing myself being like that and so, I dont really get the idea of self-pity.
I think I realised that self-pity is if I may put it bluntly,a stupid thing sometimes,when I realised a few years back that '' Honey,the world does not revolve around you,so whatever you do,have the strength to look and move forward''.Everyone's selfish to a certain extent,and so,at times,some just couldn't care less about you.
Maybe cause of this some people do it just to seek attention,some just can't help themselves,some just do it without realising it.I think there was one day where I was thinking to myself,urghh,it's just so hard and tiring travelling like that,etc,etc,etc..And then another voice or it's just my logic/rational side talking to me saying why am I pitying myself,instead of just moping around,why not look at things at the brighter side,when the going gets tough,you should at least try to be tougher..take it as a challenge,a way to arrange your time and all.And so,hence,I try to not self-pity myself too much..and maybe a lack of sympathy for those who do so.( I know I'm mean)..I also feel it takes my energy.mood away..And I dont feel it's worth of my energy to make myself feel like this.Better channel the energy to become a nerd or something more beneficial.hahahaha
Oh course,doing it once in a while is ok,but doing it for a long period of time or all the time,it annoys me lah.I would think,come on,you're not that weak of a person,why make yourself so right? Oh well,these are only my personal thoughts and it's understandable that not everyone agree on all things.so,feel free to disagree.criticize,etc. Just a current random thought that got me thinking lately=.
-with lots of love,peace out-
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Valentine's Day! For those lovers out there,it's an extra special day to celebrate love I guess? hahaha.For me ,it's really just another day.No feeling of bitterness or whatsoever this year.(i use to feel a little last time).Gosh,I'm such a grown up now.=/ It's a good thing I guess.hahaha. Was hoping to witness maybe some interesting things,but did not at all.Was a bit disappointed.
Received a call from the King of Gold Bells at night,and again,I was in blur mood cause I was still sleeping (my evening nap) So,so,so sorry man.*cries* The weather is so,so,so hot these days that it's killing me.My love for black coloured clothing is wavering thanks to the weather.
Nothing much lately.Am trying out Shiseido skincare stuff and it's not bad.Am most probably gonna some of their stuff soon.The sales person recommended me a couple of extra thing.What puzzles me is that she reccomends like two types of stuff in the same category for example,two different type of toner.I feel weird cos I was thinking is there a need to use of different product of the same thing,you get what I mean? That made me think,is she selling me,in a way to get more sales? Hmmm..Need to ask me friends some opinion about this I guess or shall just google it to get some reviews,etc.hehehe.
College is busy and stressful as usual.Arghhhh,I can do this! I must! While I was cleaning up my room for CNY,my mind started compiling a list of things/projects that I wanna do for my holiday after my exams.:DDD A couple of things I have never done before and I hope I have the patience and endurance to complete it,(being the person that I am,I really hope I do).Shall not list it down here first for I don't wanna jinx it.=)
Can't wait for Big Bang's comeback!! Am getting excited about it.It feels like it's been such a long wait after what had happen to them the past year.
That's more of less the summary of what's been happening these past few days/week I guess.Off to read some blogs,revise a bit and sleep.
=with lots of love,peace out-
Received a call from the King of Gold Bells at night,and again,I was in blur mood cause I was still sleeping (my evening nap) So,so,so sorry man.*cries* The weather is so,so,so hot these days that it's killing me.My love for black coloured clothing is wavering thanks to the weather.
Nothing much lately.Am trying out Shiseido skincare stuff and it's not bad.Am most probably gonna some of their stuff soon.The sales person recommended me a couple of extra thing.What puzzles me is that she reccomends like two types of stuff in the same category for example,two different type of toner.I feel weird cos I was thinking is there a need to use of different product of the same thing,you get what I mean? That made me think,is she selling me,in a way to get more sales? Hmmm..Need to ask me friends some opinion about this I guess or shall just google it to get some reviews,etc.hehehe.
College is busy and stressful as usual.Arghhhh,I can do this! I must! While I was cleaning up my room for CNY,my mind started compiling a list of things/projects that I wanna do for my holiday after my exams.:DDD A couple of things I have never done before and I hope I have the patience and endurance to complete it,(being the person that I am,I really hope I do).Shall not list it down here first for I don't wanna jinx it.=)
Can't wait for Big Bang's comeback!! Am getting excited about it.It feels like it's been such a long wait after what had happen to them the past year.
That's more of less the summary of what's been happening these past few days/week I guess.Off to read some blogs,revise a bit and sleep.
=with lots of love,peace out-
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